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April 5th, 2009 @ 1:23pm
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Feels like the weight of the world
Like God in Heaven gave me a turn
Don't cling to me, I swear I can't fix you
Still in the dark, can you fix me?
Free fall, free fall, all through life
If you love me, then let go of me
I wont be held down by who I used to be
She's nothing to me
Feels like the weight of the world
Like all my screaming has gone unheard
And oh I know you don't believe in me
Safe in the dark, how can you see?
Free fall, free fall, all through life
If you love me, then let go of me
I won't be held down by who I used to be...
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February 12th, 2009 @ 8:36pm
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[Private; Blaise Only]
I don't feel like myself anymore, Liebling.
Being trapped in here like this... and... nothing has happened. Lucius said that I would be able to get my revenge, but... I feel hesitant. But he deserves it! Just as the Ministry punishes us for our crimes, their followers should be punished for doing the same deeds to others! My parents were innocent! They did-- Why shoul-- I'm...
I want to kill him, Blaise. So what am I doing? Why can't I move from my room? Why must I convince myself that I should stay here? It is safe here but I... I hate her, Liebling. I hate Narcissa Malfoy...
I feel like a caged bird.
[/End Private]
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September 13th, 2008 @ 11:12pm
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I think I'm beginning to understand why everyone considers all of the older Death Eaters to be "crazy". After being locked up, whether in Azkaban or in some hidden mansion, you really start to lose yourself. Even the piano isn't bringing me back these days. I miss Katie and Jack
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March 3rd, 2008 @ 6:02pm
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[Hexed: Death Eaters Only]
Let's see if they can re-group after that; though I doubt it.
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[Hexed: Blaise only]
It was bad enough before the attack to live in this place, and now I have to deal with Flint as well? He's silent, but when was he ever not? And he's even more dreadful than before. Moping around. I'm not entirely sure I can last long without strangling the brute..
I'm confused over all of this to be honest, but at least I have you to turn to with my questions, and Lucius of course. This is a big jump from the life I was living before.
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[Hexed: Private]
It was horrible in there. There was death everywhere and the screams... mein Gott. I haven't been alone for long, with so many of us returning here to "celebrate" or whatever they prefer to call it. I haven't had a chance to really think about it on my own. I feel crowded and rushed. What have I done? I thought I'd made up my mind?
[/Hex]
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November 2nd, 2007 @ 3:27pm
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[Hexed Private to Blaise]
I'm coming to see you, alright? Lucius is more or less... occupied. Slipping out shouldn't be too hard.
I'm sorry it took so long.
[/End Private]
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October 17th, 2007 @ 6:48pm
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[Hexed to Death Eaters]
I've found where he works. Now it is only a matter of hunting him down and finishing the business. Revenge will be sweet.
[/End Hexed to Death Eaters]
[Hexed Private: Jack, Katie, and Blaise could possibly break]
I have to admit that I'm scared about all of this business. I do not know what to do anymore, but I am trying to be strong, especially in the presence of others. I do not want to appear weak to them, or to anyone, but perhaps I am not as strong as I originally thought. Perhaps the sorting hat was wrong in placing me in Gryffindor. I feel so strange here; almost like I do not belong. But Lucius' words constantly remind me that I have chosen my path; there is no going back for me.
[/End Hexed Private]
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September 11th, 2007 @ 3:01pm
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[Hexed Private to DE ONLY]
Someone snitched. The Aurors came to question and arrest me tonight. Someone reported me as Marked. I need somewhere to stay. So much for life as I knew it. I think I'm ready, though.
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[Hexed Private to Katie and Jack]
I'm sorry for any pain I've caused you. I'm sure you've heard the news.
Jack, I love you. I always will. You must know that you have my heart, as obviously I've no place for it in the darkness.
[/End Hex]
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August 30th, 2007 @ 7:02pm
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You don't remember my name.
I don't really care.
Can we play the game your way?
Can I really lose control?
Just once in my life,
I think it'd be nice,
Just to lose control, just once,
With all the pretty flowers in the dust.
Mary had a lamb.
His eyes black as coals.
If we play very quiet, my lamb,
Mary never has to know.
Just once in my life,
I think it'd be nice,
Just to lose control, just once.
If I cut you down to a thing I can use,
I fear there will be nothing good left of you.
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July 11th, 2007 @ 2:38pm
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[Hexed to Jack]
It's almost time for me.
[/End Hex]
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June 25th, 2007 @ 3:40pm
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Sorry for the lack of updates. I lost this thing and just discovered where I had misplaced it.
[Hexed Private to Self]
The prison break was horrible and gruesome, but at the same time I completely loved it. I believe that for the most part, the Death Eaters were surprised that I made it out alive. Lucius wanted me to prove myself to them, and I believe that that is his reasoning for leaving me elsewhere while he moved forward with others. The Lestrange man has no faith in me, and apparently neither does Flint, perhaps I have proven myself to them more, or maybe not. But that is not who I should be worrying about proving myself to. The Dark Lord is the one in the end who will decide if I have shown my loyalties and proven that I can be of service to him. I care for no one else’s comments and criticisms except for Lucius’.
Despite what they think, I am willing to do the Dark Lord’s will. Revenge can be achieved in ways other than killing the killer. I’m not interested in
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The band and I are back in the studio recording the next album. With everything that is going on, the music is much darker than before, but I feel that the fan base will approve. But we have everything written and the album is expected to release in early July.
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May 16th, 2007 @ 10:49am
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It's been nice lately, being able to smile again. Even if it is for being happy about all the wrong things. I'm anxious for Lucius to contact me again for Valentine's Day.
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